Now that I am taller than her……but with a broken nose ….thanks to her….for all those dark days of yore…..
Am living too with a torn down ear ear….repaired by many stitches at a hospital those days and much more…..
Besides there are many bodily marks of grievous torture & hurt…. especially on both my hands…..
Now that I have nothing to fear…..I am tall and stronger than her…
But then I used to shiver at her name even by a distant sight…..and when she stepped into the house and precisely into my room.
Thankgod those times have ceased & that era has gone….as I can breathe the blissful air…..in this world sans any fear…..
But alas with my broken nose ….
Am happy and lucky……to have seen hell at my step mom’s hands.
Neither she nursed…nor did ever care…..and threw me to “dogs” when it was time to care….. still all my childhood I had one desire…a wish that never saw the daylight….that she never hugged me as a child….!
I waited and watched with a baited breath….but that never happened till date….to this very breath….
While she used to care & carry my “step bro” always in her warm lap….and feed him by her own hands….. those hands which I always feared….she hugged him all the time….while I used to peep from the distant door…..
And I always put queries to myself…. who am I to her on this globe…..and who she is to me I never know…..!!
Anyhow let her live her life as I await the day of her go…..
The day I shall stand very near to her…..as she be lying very low…
And once lowered into her grave…..I shall peep over her white robe…..
Bitterly and unconsolably shall I weep…..and will ensure my tears run & fall deep.
And during that course…..images of my childhood torture, abuse & harm flash my stony eyes… the scenes shall reemerge and recreate…..
As my scars come back to life….blood shall ooze again through my broken nose….my soul shall shiver again that day….while she meets her eternal lord.
And I shall gasp for a bountiful air…..alas with that broken nose .
A nose which was beautiful than my step bro’s nose….
The reason for it was always beaten down & finally broken with force….!!(Writer is a Journalist a Gold Medalist. He can be reached at [email protected])
